Another year gone by without you.
As I sit and think about what I'm going to be cooking for turkey day I sit and think about how the holidays used to be w/you.
I miss you so much Juanita. Sometimes I can't think about you w/o crying and I wonder are you thinking the same. Sometimes I think my world is perfect and then I realize you aren't in it. If I can imagine how things are going for you up in heaven I'd imagine it being all white. In a far far away world where everything is beautiful and serene. Where everything is quiet and calm. Where you can laugh and eat sunflower seeds. I'd imagine it to be a wonderful world because you're there. I'd imagine that you miss me and us but that you know when you'll see us again. I imagine you're cooking up a huge feast and everything smelling so good. Juanita, I'd give up just about anything to see you one time, to spend one day w/you. To touch you. To hug you. Just one more day. It seems I'm always wanting and begging to see you one more day. I had a dream about you the other day. We were in your kitchen, at the table playing cards. You were eatting sunflower seeds. I don't know what we were playing but it seemed fun. I don't know who else was at the table but I know for sure it wasn't just us. Then all of a sudden you were telling me something. You were saying "don't do it". It plays in my head of what you we trying to tell me not to do. I think about it all the time.
Anyway...words can't express and of course I know you know this, I love you so much. With all of my heart and all of my being. With all of breath and all my soul.
